I. am. so. confused!
This entry was going to be about the Old Testament and why saying the Old Testament didn’t count while hanging on for dear life to Leviticus and Genesis was hypocritical… but I’m afraid I have to interrupt the atheist-blogger program for a very special episode.
What’s going on is, someone over at Ex-C just reconverted to Christianity. While at first I was like “WHAT?! ARE YOU INSANE?!?!?” I decided that if I’m so open-minded and tolerant, I shouldn’t have a problem with this… and I really don’t anyway. What’s really bothering me is, despite how caustic and vitriolic I often found him, he was really cool. I found him to have very good points against religion. And now he’s Christian again, and I don’t know what to think.
To be honest, I have no idea what to do now. I have no idea what to think. Occasionally over the summer I get depressed, possibly as a result of extreme boredom. In this bout of boredom/depression, I turn to religion. So I’m already beginning to question my beliefs (which I suppose really isn’t a bad thing to begin with) but now I’m really beginning to seriously question everything. Is Christianity right after all? Is any religion right? What about my dabbling in Wicca? Is Wicca right? Is any religion right?
It’s crazy how I thought I’d never be stuck in this phase again. And now that I’m back in it, I have no idea what I should do. Should I think that this Ex-C’er is an idiot and move on? Or is there something to this? My mother and my sister have been asking about my atheism lately. I like to think these are coincidences but… I’m really not sure.
Maybe, just maybe, I’m just being silly. I don’t know. I’m so confused.
see what kind of evidence he thinks he has…if its what i think it is , its silliness
I’m still waiting for him to update his new site. He claims he ran into some Christians where he lived that showed him numerological proof that Jesus is God. Apparentlty it has something to do with the 153 fish mentioned in John 21:11
Simon Peter went up, and drew the net to land full of great fishes, an hundred and fifty and three: and for all there were so many, yet was not the net broken.
I did a Google search about the 153 fish and found a bunch of interesting stuff. Though the Bible is ridiculous, my atheism is not based on that, but rather my lack of experience of God. It’s funny that many Christians used to debunk numerology and now some are embracing it as proof that God exists. If God exists why would he communicate with us in some mysterious code?
I just found his new thread on ex-C, I don’t monitor the totally off topic forum, so I missed it and had to go to his profile and see his newest post there.
Honestly, if he’s happy and doesn’t become a hate filled fundygelical idiot, then I’m happy for him.
I will close with this: Never base your beliefs on what someone else believes. If something rings true to you, investigate it, and if you find it to be true, then believe it.
see how that all worked out with Bro Jeff? i figured it would…I also did a bit of research on the topic that had him straying from the dark side…it was fairly worthless mathematical concepts applied to the Bible…patterns etc. Silly stuff
Jeff has severe bi-polar syndrome. He re-converts to Christianity for a week or so about every nine months. He’s extremely embarrassed about it, but there’s nothing he can do when it happens.
Yeah, I was happy to see Jeff return to his old self.
Who was it? I must have missed that thread at Ex-C. I’m Ro-bear there, too.
I guess all we can do is be supportive when it happens.
This recently happened to me.
Just yesterday, this fundie said I was going to hell because I didn’t believe in Christianity over at FSTDT (I usually avoid the site, but I have been going there recently) http://www.fstdt.com/fundies/comments.aspx?q=9459&page=49
Basically, he said I made the wrong decision and that he was said to me that made me uneasy.
“You are in such turmoil and dispair, my sincerest prayers go out to you, for you know not what you do.”
Whenever someone says, they’ll pray for me, I get this uneasy, “something’s not right theory”.
Today, though, shook me hard.
I was getting the mail, listening to my PSP (which I rarely do), and what happens is that I fall and the PSP screen breaks, thus the PSP is broken.
I began to fear that this was “God” telling me that I am wrong. But after that, I realized something.
There are kids are starving in Africa and there are pregnant girls who are being abused and “God” is worried about my soul.
“God” has more important things to do that to try and convert a boy who’s using what s/he gave me by breaking basically a “toy” that I only really used to surf the internet with while I’m in bed. (Also, the PSP is the extremely fragile. It was my second one and it was already knicked up pretty bad from casual use).
Simply put, teenagers (like you and me) are still vulnerable to fundies because of the fact that we, well, really don’t know what we are going with our lives (in my opinion) and all we can do is just keep strong!
Also, I myself started a blog called “The Deist Fool: Deconverting in a Converting World” and I’m going to add you to my blogroll.
- TORM
If a book is untrue than anything based on the book is untrue. If the Bible is untrue than Christianity is useless. If the book is untrue you don’t have to be intimidated by anyone who preaches it. If you listen to someone face to face and the scream at you or cry and tell you you are going to hell you might get emotional and not think clearly. If you sit down with a Bible and read it by yourself you might be more objective. May be you have already done that?
Daniel